Alright you guys- usually I would say my posts are pretty happy and upbeat, because that’s how I REALLY feel! Weeelllll.. today I’m going to be real honest with you. I thought if I put the pressure on myself, I’d have to get this room finished for the One Room Challenge … but years ago, I found out when I am under a ton of pressure I get headaches, I’m crabby, short on patience, stressed out, etc. It’s just the perfect recipe to make me crack! So.. that’s how it’s really going. Not. so. peachy.

I’m irritated with my kids because they are being kids.. let me explain. So I painted Vernon’s headboard last night, put the last coat on. The best place to work on my painting projects is in the kitchen. Therefore, I have a headboard and a footboard standing up precariously in the middle of my kitchen floor.. which is a pretty high traffic area. This is the perfect setup for DISASTER. Sure enough. We went all day without knocking them down, until now, just after dinner Rosie sent one flying and dented it all up. I wasn’t the happiest as you can imagine. Fast forward an hour and she sends the other one flying.. you get the picture. Now.. none of this has anything to do with my kids at all. It’s all me. I set myself up for ALL of it.

I’m completely MAXED out and FRUSTRATED. I’m sorry that you had to come to my blog today and read the complete opposite of sunshine and rainbows! Really, I am. But, I always want to stay real with you guys. This project has been VEERRRYYY hard on me. Life is not always peachy. I’m not always the happiest person. But the first step in the right direction is to get it out in the open and try to figure out what’s next.

So, I really am going to try my hardest to finish this room in the allotted time.. but also try not to be a miserable person in the meantime.

Today, the only thing new I have to show you, are pictures of Vernon’s painted bed frame, unassembled of course. I originally had picked an olive green color, which I really liked and was pretty set on. Then, after I found my color palette last week I decided to switch it to a little brighter of a color… I painted one coat and it was too limey for me. So, I had some black paint on hand and added a bit to make it a little more earthy. It worked! I put another coat on with that.. and decided it was a little too dark.. so I added some white! Perfection! You know what tho? It was almost the identical color of that very first color I had originally chosen! Moral of the story, most often you will go with the first choice you chose, from the very beginning! Go with your gut!

The door that I showed you last week got sanded, and that’s as far as I got with it. My wallpaper came in yesterday, but now I am waiting on a wallpaper squeegee to come in. The perks of living in a small town! My fabric samples came in and I chose one for the window coverings, but haven’t ordered the fabric yet. And that’s all I have for you folks! I forgot to mention- my first choices for wallpaper and fabric, also ended up being the winners!

So where does this whole realization lead me?! I have figured out that it is VERY hard to be an interior designer/decorator with a 2 and 4 year old.. and that makes me sad. I want to do both so. BAD. I love design and decor! But family comes first. They will only be little for a short time. I want to soak up this time with them, and not be crabby and short on patience all the time. So, that doesn’t mean that I am going to STOP designing and decorating.. but it may be at a much slower pace. If you take away your passions in life, you’ll lose your spark! You may just have to get a little more creative in what you CAN do! I may do more craft projects which are a lot easier to do with kids than overhauling an entire room! I also have something else up my sleeve.. I have been thinking about it for a while.. but I can’t spill until it’s a for sure thing!

Okay, so I got it all out there! I feel so much better now! Thank you so much for reading and listening to what was on my heart! I really appreciate it, and as much as I don’t LOVE the vibe of this post, it feels so good to be honest and vulnerable with you guys!

I’ll see you next Thursday, if  not sooner!